Sunday, March 28, 2010

Patience

Guiding a child is not an easy job and being a mother is certainly not an easy post.
You would love to give the world to the child, too much of it you are afraid to spoil the child. You are afraid to give them the "puppy cradle death" syndrome..It's like a little kid gets a puppy for the first time, just hugs it so much, snaps it's neck. All that love is gonna snap that puppy.

Difficult to strike a balance...

I always wanted to be a mother, I have an ideal idea of my family life... I do not know if my ideal will come true...I m working towards it...Earning hard day by day to gain experience and earn money to be able to provide for my future children... I want to provide a good life like what I am having...I love my family..and they inspire me to create my own...Thank you Mummy& Daddy...

I was tutoring my cousin this evening, to guide her on her homework...its not a easy task, to capture her attention as her focus time span is short...it was a good experience for future reference...and teaching a child requires lots of patience..a trait that I am weak at....

I was thinking..am i really a mother material?do i have what it takes, the patience?
Something I want so much and something that I am afraid to have...funny how the mind and heart plays with me...

From now on...I m gonna train my patience for a start...

Most important is the love and understanding...and pure care from the heart will not go wrong...(Note: Not what you "think" is best for them - because that is what "Kills" the pure hearted them)

As for starting a family..not so soon...so much to learn..and the time has not come..it seems for now..one day when I do..I'll let you know if it feels the same as what I'm feeling now...

Monday, March 30, 2009

The Moment

2 years ago...
a chubby little boy


There is this boy whose father will
accompany him to wait for his
bus to pick him up to school...
i told myself...what a loving dad...
i told myself...how children are being
spoilt these days...


2 years after...
one day


this boy had grown up...
no longer the chubby boy i used to see
the father accompanied him still
to wait for the bus...
but today...i saw that he had a
younger brother...


6am in the morning...the moment


his dad and his younger brother was
watching behind the gate...
he was sitting outside the gate...
his brother was searching for him...
their eyes met..his younger brother..
flashed a cheeky smiled waved at his brother...
he rushed to his brother and sat beside him...
his brother put his arm around his waist
afraid that he will fall...


the younger brother leaning on his brother...
flashed another smile...
i felt so warm...i felt so touched...
to be able to see such bond...
i have a close relationship with my brother
we had gotten close thru the years...
as we grew up..
its amazing to see kids bond at such
a young age,
normally they tend to fight for
toys and attention...
the boy..certainly not a spoilt brat...
but a loving brother,
the younger brother..adores his brother
the parents..certainly have taught them well..
Signing off,
with sweet thoughts
Erin



Sunday, March 22, 2009

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat

video
Do you hear me, I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday
Signing Off,
Erin (Lucky)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

The Baby Ant

Lost and alone
Yearning to go home
Yearning for company
So tiny yet so strong
And it is never afraid
She keeps going on finding the way home
Crawling on my skin
Crawling on my paper
I put her down on the ground
And she still came back up
All she wants is to go home
It never stops her even if she needs to start from zero
I put her on the wall
She just kept crawling up
Without fear. Without doubt.
And then she is gone
I just hope she finds her way home
I’m sure she will be home
Because I saw her mama waiting on the wall.


Written by Erin 02/11/2009

inspired by an ant..

Adore and Love?

What is the difference between
"Adore" and "Love"?
definition of the dictionary:
adore - to regard with loving
admiration and devotion
love - intense feeling of affection


does it mean being adored is
more than being loved?
well it could be otherwise,
WHY is it hard for someone to say
I Love You?
I will settle for "being adored"
as something which means more.
I adore you too!
Am i living in an illusion of love and adoration
which i believe its true?
I know dear, i m over analysing it again~haha
I chose this path and i will be brave to
face whatever comes..
For now i will patient and wait...
I will wait for you..
and i will be home again...


Signing off,
Erin
choosing to think otherwise!
am i trying to be funny?i think so too...
smirks~


Thursday, February 19, 2009

Entwine


There are many people we meet in life...
In school, on the road, shops...
Introduced by friends, met by accidents...
acquaintances...
Some you just meet at crossroads
and you will never see them again...
Some disappear and come back
after some time...
Some stays beside for you forever,
some you really hope they will stay,
but the hope never came...
Some you take for granted...
I do miss them...
I do think of them often...
I always wonder how are they doing...
I wish you all the best!
Friends are a gift, friends are special...
Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.


Signing off,
Bon Voyage...moving on

http://www.whatnow.org.uk/blog/haley/reason-season-or-lifetime-thank-you

Spring


Spring time brings hope...
A new start...
It colours the world...
My favourite season other than winter
is Spring...
The cool breeze gently
dance the flowers in the garden...

The sun shines throughout the day...
Wake up every morning
inspired by the lovely spring day...
Its time to create...
Its time to enjoy...
this lovely season..the season of
hope and beginings...signing off...
embracing a new start~